The last two days have been incredible learning days. I have been challenging myself by digging into the ways in which I view God. Yesterday, I started thinking about how God is completely constant, all the time…He never ever changes. And yet, I don’t always think of Him the same way. Even though I know that He always remains the same, my view of him varies. I suppose this is due in part to my human nature and the fact that I am prone to change, but I know how necessary it is that I think of God for Who He really is. I need to have a consistent view of my Creator. After all, how can I adequately serve, love, and worship a God that I don’t truly know? I have spent every day of my life to this point thinking that I know God, but now I realize that I have actually done a poor job of getting acquainted with my Heavenly Father.
So, I spent most of yesterday and a few hours today reading and writing about Who God is. One thing I realize is that God is beyond my understanding. I will never, no matter how hard I try, come to a complete comprehension of Him. But if we were honest, why would we want a Creator that is on a level we understand? He is so much bigger than me, and I am incredibly thankful for that! Anyway, I set out on this mission to discover God knowing that I would never come out the other side with a finished image of who He is. But, I also know that there are certain things about Himself that He has made known to us. So, I made a list of the things that I know to be true of God’s character. Now, I have a list of truths to make sure I always view God in consistent light. As I continue to learn more about Him, I can add to my list, and I think this will help me grow closer to my Lord just as I grow closer to friends when I learn more about them. Here is the list I created:
So, how does learning all of this tie into my time over here in Lithuania? Well, as I have been saying, I believed that part of the reason God called me to this semester abroad is because He knew there were some things He needed to teach me, but I would only learn them if I was removed from all things (and people) familiar and comfortable. Learning about Who God really is has been one of those lessons. During the 45 days since I left home, I have been moved to my feet, my knees, tears, laughter, ear-to-ear smiles, and so many other expressions of awe by my amazing God revealing Himself to me. I have been trying for 3.5 years now to learn what it means to run after Him, and I am finally figuring it out. It means taking myself out of “my” world in order to see God for Who He is. Whether this means shutting myself in my bedroom at home in complete silence, taking time away from homework, going for a run in the woods without music in my ears, or flying to the other side of the globe where I know nothing and no one, I have to bring myself back to God every day. He never changes or moves away from me, but I am a creature of change and movement. If God seems different to me from one day to the next, it’s because I have changed. Being here in Lithuania, where everything is new and my life is full of changes, I have been able to see how God has remained constant. He is in me just like He was in me in Bryan, Ohio and Marion, Indiana. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. I am so excited to continue getting to know Him every day of the rest of my life.
Hi, I'm Katie... just a girl, living this adventure for the glory of God. Thanks for reading!